Holotropic Breathwork
17 Feb, 23
My body is tired, but my energy is calm. I feel my heart full of gratitude and love, ultimately one. I feel the presence, I’m the presence. It was the journey of cleansing, releasing, washing away the dirt. That kind of dirt that penetrates through the pores of your skin, penetrates through every cell of your physical and mental body, There is energy that gets sticky, loaded with heaviness. But there is water washing it away. Water purifies all of my being. Uncontrolled release. I feel mind fighting it, ego fighting it, as it almost begs for survival. But water is stronger. Softly reaching the parts, the corners that have been hiding away, trying to stay in the dark. The breath feels like the current, the wind, the energy, helping the water to move. Helping to find ways into the darkest, most isolated parts of the mind and body. The force of breath is so powerful it moves mountains. It moved my body. Body that has so long searched and longed for freedom. Body that needs to be moved, body that needs to be touched, body that needs to be felt. Slowly it stops resisting, slowly the body escapes the mind and unites with it. The illusion of separation dissolves into nothingness. Freedom expresses itself.Through breath. And then comes the strong release. The river’s flow is powerful, and feels almost like an explosion. It can’t be stopped now. Water washes away the dirt, the heaviness, everything that has been waiting to be released but couldn’t find the way. There is lots of sadness that is not linked to my existence but yet is being released through me. I allow it. I allow it, my body expresses it. Slowly the flow becomes calmer, gentler, softer. It feels as if the storm has opened the sky to turn it into light. The body is tired, no more fighting with the mind. I’m present with what arises. The calmness of the breath is filling up the space. It’s just that, nothing else. I’m tired, I need to rest. I rest. -
18 Feb, 23
The journey continues…
My body feels energized, the breath slowly takes me on another journey. Deeper, faster, stronger, the body finds its freedom. It’s free to move, it’s exploring itself. It’s beautiful, it’s ecstatic. It feels like my body is making love to itself. The mind tries to intervene, but the energy, the breath is stronger. The fight - there was no fight. Just one part overpowering another. The surrender is beautiful, it helps the journey to find its heights. The movement of the body and breath takes the form of a dance and eventually becomes one. The expression of energy created slowly takes me into the space of peace and calmness.Rising higher, I become one with the flow of pure love. It’s like the golden light reached my heart and exploded into every single cell of my body. The love is now flowing out through the pores of my skin. I’m crying. It’s not sadness or pain, but the most beautiful expression of oneness. With everything and everyone. I am aware, I feel people in the space, I feel their energies, and yet all I can feel is love. The music drives me further where I once again reach peace and calm. I hear others on their journeys. It’s beautiful, it’s raw, it’s pure energy expressing itself. I no longer feel overwhelmed. There is knowing coming from within. All we need is to recognise who we are at the depth of our being. The observed and the observer become one. There is no higher path, than the path to yourself.